Poetries of my life

2007-12-08T18:45:00.000+08:00

Blog moved to

www.xanga.com/felinez

Gonna blog there for the time-being.

Wanna try it out!

2007-12-04T22:32:00.000+08:00

This guy, Nick, is amazing!

A whole new world from Disney's Alladin:

Part Of Your World from the Little Mermaid:

Randommm

2007-11-07T21:22:00.000+08:00

Thanks son for the lovely gift..

And Simon! wei the choc inside has expired ...

Peek-a-boo!

Super busy in school

SOUR STRAWBERRIES ARE LOVE!

Darling Kitty <3

Maroon skinny jeans

Dinokun's cuter! If anybody knows anywhere that still sells dino, tell me!

USB hub from good friend!

Kitten that couldn't meow!

I remembered bloggin some time back about me touchin a frog. Here it is!!!!!!

Say hi!

2007-11-04T03:40:00.001+08:00

Ihateitireallydostopbeingsofuckingannoyinganddisappointingandiknowyouwouldntbeabletounderstandnomatterhowhardyoutrycause youhaventgotanybrainstobeginwithyouresuperannoyinggoshihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyoueverybodylifeeverythingshutupand iwishthatyoudexperiencewhatimgoingthroughrightnowihateyouihateyouihateyouyouremygreatestdisappointmentandyourewastingmyenergythoughtstimeandeverydamnthingihateyou

2007-10-29T02:27:00.000+08:00

The Window Shopper

Random Gentle Love Dreamer (RGLD)

Loving, hopeful, open. Likely to carry on an romance from afar. You are The Window Shopper.

You take love as opportunities come, which can lead to a high-anxiety, but high-flying romantic life. You're a genuinely sweet person, not saccharine at all, so it's likely that the relationships you have had and will have will be happy ones. You've had a fair amount of love experience for your age, and there'll be much more to come.

Part of why we know this is that, of all female types, you are the most prone to sudden, ferocious crushes. Your results indicate that you're especially capable of obsessing over a guy you just met. Obviously, passion like this makes for an intense existence. It can also make for soul-destroying letdowns.

Your ideal match is someone who'll love you back with equal fire, and someone you've grown to love slowly. A self-involved or pessimistic man is especially bad. Though you're drawn to them, avoid artists at all costs.

Your exact female opposite:

The Stiletto

Deliberate Brutal Sex Master

Always avoid: The Hornivore (RBSM)

Consider: The Gentleman (DGLM), The Loverboy (RGLM), The Boy Next Door (RGLD)

Link: The Online Dating Persona Test @ OkCupid - free online dating.

Egg Facts

2007-10-26T20:29:00.000+08:00

Chickens’ eggs are the byproduct of a chicken’s “menstrual” cycle. If fertilized, they would produce baby chicks.

Male chicks are worthless to the egg industry, so every year millions of them are tossed into trash bags to suffocate or are thrown alive into high-speed grinders called “macerators.”

Egg-laying hens are all eventually slaughtered for their flesh. Their weak and emaciated bodies are made into soup or dog and cat food, or they are fed back to other chickens.

“Free-range” eggs are a marketing ploy—the free-range label is not subject to any USDA regulations, so “free-range” chickens endure miserable conditions, just as all animals used for food do.

A mother hen will turn her eggs as many as five times an hour and cluck to her unborn chicks, who will chirp back to her and to one another from within their shells!

In factory farms, eggs are taken from the mother as soon as they are laid and put in large incubators—a chick will never meet his or her parents. Hens prefer to have private nests hidden from predators and will often go without food or water in order to obtain a private nest. This demonstrates the fact that hens will sacrifice their own comfort if it means protecting their chicks.

2007-10-26T18:06:00.000+08:00

To Zanarkand.. live orchestra version.. I love it! Wonderful!!!! The oboe was amazing.. resonating across the hall..

Now you know why i listen to this to sleep every night..

Play it

2007-10-25T02:29:00.000+08:00

I suddenly feel dumb. I feel that i'm wasting their money on school fees. I feel that i'm too stupid to even get a degree. I should just sweep the floor.

Jonestown: The Life and Death of Peoples Temple

2007-10-20T16:08:00.000+08:00

"When you meet the friendliest people you have ever known, who introduce you to the most loving group of people you've ever encountered, and you find the leader to be the most inspired, caring, compassionate and understanding person you've ever met, and then you learn the cause of the group is something you never dared hope could be accomplished, and all of this sounds too good to be true-it probably is too good to be true! Don't give up your education, your hopes and ambitions to follow a rainbow." by Jeannie Mills, who was an early defector from the Peoples Temple.

FILL MY MIND WITH YOUR POISONS. DEVOUR ME.

2007-10-19T21:19:00.000+08:00

I wanna cry, but i won't.
So what if i'm wailing inside, cause all you ever bother was how it looked on the outside, how it seemed to be, and then simply judge me even when you know nothin.
Everything i'll keep in a bottle, together with all the SHIT i've been through, and swallow.

For the entire week.

2007-10-16T11:38:00.000+08:00

Life is so full of shit.

Random: I miss..

.. How laughter should be..

.. the fun times we had on the beach..

..drawing fake tattoos..

... how love should actually feel..

My mynah..

In short i'm feeling like this :

Trumpees Girls Outing!

2007-10-07T23:46:00.000+08:00

Look at what they did..... :/

Side track a little bit...

Plynk and my room in thailand for our band's competition in 2004.

With Aidah at the centre, percussionist.. during national day

With our teacher - in - charge :)

Our card to Dr Lee, our conductor then.

My god. This pic is damn ancient. First 3 mnths with our seniors.

The trumpees girls. Back in J1, First ever band concert together.

Me, Lauda, Moogle, Taken with my first camera phone.

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And now....

Moving on to our outing ...
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The guys couldn't come! :c

Shrek couldn't come cos of his sexay leg.. su jin had to do duty, vickie the best man for the nite.. so only the girls met up! And guess what we ALL wore?

TPJC PE ATTIRE.

O.M.G. HAHAHAHAHA.. Shrek was about to come, but the pain was too much for him to handle so he went back home. And guess what, he thought that we were all supposed to wear School Uni instead. HHAHAA, he should have came!! Then i can laugh and gloat at him ten thousand times.

Only LauDa` was permitted to wear the trumpet shirt we bought from our Thailand trip. So she got to be our mascot for the night!

After endlessly walking to and fro from Century square to TM, we finally decided to have our dinner at pizza hut. Tried some cheese dip kinda thing, man, it sucks. Firstly i totally dislike Mayo, then Pillow got to make things worst by saying it smells like aromatherapy! YUCKS.... . . .. ..

The ROSEMARY cheese dip? wth wth wth?

Beef meatballs and hawaiian

The end result!!!!! Mazlinah had the slice while pillow, moogle and I had the edges each! That's the only best part I swear!

My damned phone and face.

Plynk, i wanna go runnin with u! Weekday also!

The reason why i couldn't be a singer...

ALL OF US!

Pillow and Plynk. Pillow looked damn fab with her new haircut!

Super cute moogle who throws things out of the blue whenever she gets overly excited.

Busy talking, updating everyone on our lives..

After pizza hut, we went around TM, which was already closing and all, to take random pictures!!! I'll let the pictures speak for themselves.

Lauda

Moogle the pimp and the show girls.

What did i say yo. And plynk is damn jealous cos she couldn't kiss moogle!

Our feet then (at thailand)

OURS NOW!!! muaahahah..

Even the security guard wanna put his feet in!

Trumpees

2007-10-07T00:08:00.000+08:00

Met up with the trumpees today! omg. It has been SO DARN LONG! It felt so gd to finally have friends with the same frequency as you around. Like finally. finally. finally.

It was sooooooooo fun! although the venue's at TM. Cant wait to catch up with you guys again!

much love. <3

Michelle my bestie..

2007-10-05T01:58:00.000+08:00

Mich, you're making me super emo..

This post is specially dedicated back to you, with lots of e-hugs and kisses from me. Forgive me for all the grammatical/spelling errors and randomness....

I remembered how it was, waking up every morning at six fifteen, and making sure i leave my house by six fifty to catch the bus to school. Soon it dragged on to 7.. and then 7.15, and then, getting late for school. The flagraising was at 7.50 am, and i'm seldom punctual. Damn, sometimes it's the damn bus' fault ok! The damn people didn't wanna move in and clogged up the damn door. Thinking about it still made me freakin pissed... i would take about an hr just to reach school! when it's just at tampines...

Yeah, and i remember mario who catches late comers and stuff. My god he caught me twice or thrice i think, and i remembered that all it took is 1, or was it 2 (?) more demerits and a warning letter would be sent to my mama.

On a side note, mich why are you so ah lianish!! 'guai kia'!!!?? omg omg omggggg. This made me remember those times we were so crazy over neoprints, and you went, "wanna take neeoooo print?" like some ahlian, and i called you ah lian the entire time. hahaha.

There was once i got caught for my multiple earrings, my socks (dammit nth better to do), the shoelaces in the blouse, the missing collar pin, my untied hair.. and was even reported to my hometutor by the principal. crap... and of course, i got caught for my nail color as well. So, my bestie n i resorted to one method and that is if we were to be late, we would wait for each other, and.. perhaps crawl into school through the broken fence, or run into the school compound when mario wasn't watching... stupid things like these.. haha.. and it was illegal to buy breakfast into class after flagraising. But seriously, we didn't really bother..

Lectures were.. lengthy. I would never forget the auditorium, mainly used for chemistry lectures, and the ??? lecture hall for our biology. Biology was damn fun. Especially when it's about reproduction systems :))) And i remember how it feels to barely pass biology essay mid terms. its like, a meagre 4/15 or smth for each qn, after writing so damn much. Mich, do you remember we either beat each other by a mark or so? haha. And do you remember the time we were sms-ing at the back of the auditorium during chem lecture, and u typed smth funny, and we laughed like idiots? HAHHAHAA. man, i missed those times spent with you.

Mich, though we are in different universities, i'll stay over each time its possible.. and i wanna assure you that, though we have yet to update eachother on the many things that are happening daily in our lives, i'm always here as your bestie, even when everyone forsakes you, i'll be here :)

All the way back in secondary school.. I remember asking you to tie plaits for (sch rule) and you tied it super loosely!!!!!!! My hair isn't as fine as yours!!

To JC..

And many more years to come :)

After school with the nippies/After math tuition

Dinner @ TM

After Konzert :) We nv fail to amuse ourselves..

Our final concert (hopefully not), together.

At VCH, prcs concert. HAHA, do you remember the angklung conductor?

Our first clubbing together, at cocolatte.

Sport's day

Hanging out in the toilet at ? missed about 3 straight periods!

First 3 months. Time flies real fast.

One of our chemistry lectures.. I remember calling clement a lipid.. :)

Mich's super highlighted math lecture notes.

A silly joke... on mich's chemistry notes!

prom night-Masquarade themed. With the nippies.

Food @ Random!

2007-10-04T23:29:00.001+08:00

Sis and I were hungry, and off to the kitchen we went! She wanted to cook some curry vegetables wrap thingy, and we did. Although the end result was that it was too bland, we still had some kinda fun.

Frying the veges with curry powder

Wrapping the vegs..

Dunk them into the pan and fry. Just look at the amt of oil..

Assorted grains. Everything in! - Pounded corn, oats, wheat, purple grains, barley.. u name it!

U-dong As usual while doing work! The picture doesn't do much justice. It looked better in real life :/ however, it was a lil too salty to taste..

*o*

Supper past midnite! While studing for business venture test..... :c As u can see, i'm pretty good at multi-tasking. Eat, study, type notes on laptop, surf the net, MSN..

A Random bulgogi lunch. That's the amount of rice i eat!

Thinkin with the other head

2007-10-02T18:39:00.000+08:00

To the world's most irritating-est bastard-est person:

I hereby declare that you ought to grow more balls. Big enough to suffocate you.

xoxo
me.

Void.

2007-10-02T03:07:00.000+08:00

Suddenly the skies turn grey, all that's around me wither and die. Everything's not going right. If I could die a million times just to be happy for a day, I gladly would.

I _ _ _ _ you.

2007-09-27T22:32:00.000+08:00

Argh im so happy!

I've touched a tiny toad for the first.time.in.my.life!!! omg omg omg omg omg.

It was so adorable!! post pics up antoher time!

P.s. I found my darlin kitty...

2007-09-25T01:40:00.000+08:00

This is damn sucks. Heck that grammatical error.

I'm thinking inchoherently. not surprising cause its like 1.42 am in the mornin. crap crap crap. This week would have been great less the test. crap and i've only studied like, 1 chapter. And its already 6 pgs of friggin notes. yes, ill fin studying this nonsense by hook or by crook. ive been thru this for 3 consecutive (yes consecutive!) sems already. This is nothin. Like real kiss my ass. How i so wanna curl up in bed and fin that darn story book of mine. i've been reading it for days already!

angsty!!

p/s my eyes so wanna burst outta its sockets already.

Saysi's and Clara's Birthday

2007-09-22T15:10:00.000+08:00

photo credits: Teo. T 2007, why is t gay, tgay network, viewed 22 September 2007, {www.tg.com}

BBQ at Daniel's place.

Sunset

Wendy's group in Daniel's room! Project rush! I'm glad presentation's ova!

Peelin eggs with Serene.

The birthday girls!

BBQ chicken wings, salad, sausages, prawns, crabstix, potatoes, duck meat, ribeye! yummies!

My favourite companion of the night-the emo cat. Damn emo, it sat by the poo and stoned for like, minutes.

Henry's da man.

The emo cat upclose.

Conspiring. HAHHAHA.

Wendy!

Gabriel and henry!

roasting on an open fire..

had to leave early as my dad picked me up. didn't stay on for the cake cutting :(!

hehe, Ritz bday cards!

All i knew what happened was people getting dunked into the water

and ended up looking like this: o_o

2007-09-18T17:19:00.001+08:00

Sleepy everday!!! :c

2007-09-12T19:23:00.000+08:00

Just 1 min ago, there were tremors. My flat literally shook from left to right, and it was definitely worst than that of the tsunami's.

And guess where i was? in the toilet!!! Thought there was a ghost ard or something as the towels were moving and i was like, why am i so dizzy? Everything in my house shook, the dangling lights, my necklaces, cabinets..

And then.. my mum went frantic. And i was like pretending to be brave...

It's coming..

2007-09-11T22:59:00.000+08:00

@ Random..

Insert 500 Won..& whack those popping things!!!

Trust me this game is damn retarded. Those stuffs popped up so fast i couldn't keep track of them. Eh, but a great calorie burner/stress reliever..

The Park sisters are fearsome..

Se Ryoung!

Se Hee & I

p.s. So not looking forward to next week! :s

2007-09-10T00:20:00.000+08:00

Stepping Stones. Icy cold even during summer.

Where we meet.

Compare and contrast

House of a middle-income family

Red white yello..

The doctor's

The house of a scholar... Isn't it nice to live in such a place? If time could rewind..

Corn!

2007-09-08T16:54:00.001+08:00

2007-09-08T15:02:00.000+08:00

@ Suwon (수원)

The Suwon Visitor's centre, walking distance from suwon's subway.

Daisies!!

The Folk Village! A must go for Daechanggum(Da chang Jing) fans...

Wish along the sacred rope

The Family shrine of the past

pound it!

The kitchen!! Greatly resembles that of my gran's old house!

Alright blogger is taking 20 000 yrs to upload pics. I shall stop here for now and do my assignments!! Stop procrastinatin!

2007-08-30T17:12:00.000+08:00

The 김밥 post ^_^

Summer is really realllllly hot! It felt as though i was suntanning at sentosa everyday. Gonna blog about my trip bit by bit. Here goes . .

Bought 2 similar kimbab rolls (Assorted flav) for 5000원 from Anguk where i stayed for a week. It's darn good! Assorted means the flav changes from one end to the other eg. Kimchi then bulgolgi then cheese with sesame leaf... The best part of the roll was the kimchi part!!!

Kimbab with pickled radish (in yellow)

Close up! The bulgogi part

I suggest to those who would be visiting Korea anytime soon to try it! There are restaurants only serving kimbab everywhereeeee. and they aren't expensive! definitely worth the try.

2007-08-25T02:52:00.000+08:00

Helllloooooooo!

I'm finally back from korea!!

Will post pictures up! Not today i guess.. cause im sleepy (actually lazy).

2007-08-08T16:17:00.000+08:00

The Hidden Meaning your Name (frm Ky):

* Nuturing
* Balance
* Responsibility
* Family
* Children
* Duty
* Marriage
* Divorce :c
* Love
* Romance
* Service
* Community
* Beautification
* Domesticity
* Teaching
* Counseling
* Artistic abilities

You are generally a calm person. You get excited when your favorite band is in town, when you are going on a date with your partner or when you and your friends are dancing. Your friends mean everything to you. You hate it when the summer is over.

You like art, and some poetry. You can throw a party, or help a friend put one together. You usually have no trouble finding dates, but you occasionally hit a dry spell. You like the outdoors, usually, and rainy weather doesn't bother you. You are on good terms with your parents, even though they annoy you once in a while. People tend to think you are reliable and trustworthy. You like animals.

Go try it! www.quizbox.com/horoscopes/

2007-08-04T18:43:00.000+08:00

Why do i find myself thinking of you?

2007-08-01T23:31:00.000+08:00

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2007-07-30T19:50:00.001+08:00

더나트 그리고 우유 하고 캍이 먹고싶어!
Hedonist 아냐!

You Are a Powdered Devil's Food Donut

A total sweetheart on the outside, you love to fool people with your innocent image.
On the inside you're a little darker, richer, and more complex.
You're a hedonist who demands more than one pleasure at a time.
Decadent and daring, you test the limits of human indulgence.

What Donut Are You?

2007-07-08T00:05:00.000+08:00

Oh my goodness.

TPJC HAS A MUSIC MV!!!!!!! Found out via 04S08's regular emailing 'sessions'. I miss school, I miss band!! How time flies.. :C
Take a look!!! p.s i didnt know stikfas entrepreneur is frm tpjc!! omg..........

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bOqhvOMYqFw

This reminds me of the sch cheer taught by our OGLs during our orientation back in 2004 !

"i wanna be a tpjc-ian
i wanna wear my tp crest
i wanna be a tpjc-ian
coz tpjc is the best!"

btw. I'm always caught for not wearing my 'TP crest'. HAHHA

Side track a lil.

Pretty good band during Tcher's day

Found this clip taken in TPJC songfest 2007. I think he sang well.

TPJC modern dance 2007 for SYF : dedicated to KEYun~~~!

TPJC choir

And this random clip( and funny) taken by some students at the very place me and michelle had to run and hide from our DM each time we're late. MICH~ do you rem us sneaking into the sch through the hole in the fence! HAHA.

i miss sch :(

And the Metal Reactivity experiment! unfair, we didn't get to see a live demo duriing chem class!

Our Farewell 2

2007-06-29T00:46:00.000+08:00

Feeling rather random..

I wonder if Gardenia's bread slices are getting thinner. Cause it definitely feels like it.. why... I've been a loyal fan of Gardenia ever since i've started eating bread :(

Anyway.. with regards to my Bcom report, i felt as though i've just weaved something out of nothing... though it's a fun topic to do, but i've got too many things on hand. *Can't breathe*

Dreading Saturday.. don't ask me why...

2007-06-24T01:00:00.000+08:00

Relatively true. Try this test at :

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2007-06-21T19:35:00.000+08:00

your words hurt me alot.

Initially i would feel a tinge of anger, which slowly subsides to that 'sour' feeling. I hate it. It feels corrosive, like it's gonna corrode my heart anytime. Sometimes it hurts so bad that i could literally feel tears oozing right from my heart, and then channelling all the way up to my tear ducts.

This is EXACTLY what i am feeling right now, with noone to turn to and feeling so helpless yet i wanna still pretend im strong and cool about everything.

Sometimes i feel like throwing things around in frustration, i feel like tearing and breaking things apart. I nearly wannted to tear my hair off my scalp and bang my head against the wall..

All because of you.

2007-06-16T17:51:00.000+08:00

한국을 노무 좋아..

세령!! 파 김치 목고 싶어???? :p

1st kr post!

2007-06-16T03:34:00.000+08:00

메롬!

안영
제 이름은 양지미 입니다. 저는 수무살 입니다.
매일 학교가 끝나도 숙제 때문에 너무 스트레스를 빋습니다..그리고 매주 econs를 진자 스트레스!! Econs test를 올 거 여ㅣ 요 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ <---(세령 언니가 배어서요!)

나는 지즘 자고싶어요.... 고무 피군.. 내일 일직도 일어날 거여ㅣ요.......

to you: 니가 나한테 어떻게 그러 수 있니..?

2007-06-08T23:38:00.001+08:00

My mynah 'birdie'

My group members for sem 3

2007-06-08T23:32:00.000+08:00

Thomas.me.seryoung.madaline :)

quizzes!

2007-06-08T22:46:00.003+08:00

Got this from Mad's blog and thus decide to try!!! Hey Mad, the last paragraph's same as yours!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are quite expressive and thoughtful. You see the world in a way that others are blind to.

You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it.

You believe that people see you for how you are, not how you look. But deep down, you know that's not exactly true.

Your near future is a lot like the present, and as far as you're concerned, that's a very good thing.

For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

Colorgenics.

2007-06-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

Colorgenics!
At this particular time, you are feeling that you are or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams. You feel that everything is against you. But look on the bright side for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor.

In actual fact you are not willing to exert yourself in any way. You have that truly 'laid back' attitude and are unwilling to extend yourself or exert undue effort. You feel that to move forward - be it in your life style or in business relationships - would require more energy output than you are prepared to give at this time. You want to take life easy and your attitude is such that 'Enough is Enough'.

You know what you want and you are very dogmatic and demanding - especially in your emotional demands. You have specific ideas and beliefs and if these beliefs are not realised you can become extremely frustrated. You may not be that perfect but you are looking for perfection with the perfect partner.

You are experiencing considerable stress which is essentially the result of on going rejection and hostility. You are in the unpleasant position where offers of trust, affection and understanding are being withheld and you are being treaded with a degrading lack of consideration. You feel that you are being denied the appreciation that you deserve, which is essential to your well-being and self-esteem, but you have to face up to the situation because as matters stand at this time there is little that you can do about it - you feel that you are getting nowhere and the continuous struggle is a lonely one: all difficulties and no encouragement. Whatever you try to say or do is met with continuous hostility and no matter how much you protest you are consistently misunderstood. You need to escape from the situation but you are so perplexed that you cannot find the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.

In the past your trusting attitude has often been misunderstood and so you have needed to protect yourself against your tendency to be abused and taken advantage of. As a consequence you possibly adopt an aloof and critical attitude and you are only willing to let your guard down once sincerity and trustworthiness can be assured.

Before i sleep..

2007-05-18T01:41:00.000+08:00

hm.

Sentosa.

2007-05-12T00:15:00.000+08:00

My 2nd time visiting Sentosa this year.. as usual, it rained.....and rained... stopped, and then rained again. Everyone had numerous rounds of volleyball and captain's ball. Guess i should go running more! Stamina's getting really lousy... :(

Playing beach volley while waiting for the drizzle to stop.

They look like kids, don't they! haha.. Mike, Henry & Jun Ming

Far right: Daniel

Henry, Clara, Saysi

Tram-ride to Siloso beach!

Siloso beach:)

Saysi!

JM's signature pose 0_0

The girls

Mike gettin' dunked by JM

The highly versatile beach volley ball!

Wendy and me!

I JUST CAN'T HELP IT BUT THIS PICTURE IS SO FUNNY!!!!!!!! JUST LOOK AT WENDY!!! HAHAHAHHAHAAAAAAAAA (x 100000)

Everyone! (henry's extra!!)

Trying to kick Jun ming's ass.

It started to drizzle abit after that, so we proceeded to Cafe Del Moar. Not to pleased with the service (didn't meet customer expectations at all..). Ordered to sets of Nachos (it's pretty gd actually) that comes with 3 side dips - Cheese, tartar sauce with hints of beer and salsa. Ordered a peach jelly margarita for the first time and it's super yummy! Henry said i could work there cause i was dressed in blue too -_-

The gang, less Thomas the photographer

Daniel

The gloomy weather.. it was only 3+ in the day and it looked as though it's already evening!

Hmm..

Decided to head back to Vivo as JM has to leave early. Missed the first tram as it was darn packed.

Pretty flora

okay.. these pretty much summed up the entire sentosa trip. Really disappointing as it kept drizzling!!! *prays for sun almighty on Sunday!!!!!

Bye bye..

Karma.

2007-05-10T01:16:00.000+08:00

How apt is the honesty module?

damn prick. That's what you are. If you DO NOT have the guts, then don't go around "solicitating" cause it gets you NOWHERE at all. Distortion is only in the mind but does not alter concrete facts.
I think God is not doing enough for you. Perhaps cause of the senseless double standards you practice. Some people can just continue sucking other peoples' backside and lick their toes. Look, who's the one without backbone now?

PRICKS. Don't say one thing and meant the other, cause it doesn't work that way. DON'T pretend for goodness sake. Singapore's too small for this.

2007-05-05T00:16:00.000+08:00

hello

Poem for my 19th birthday 2006

2007-05-04T02:22:00.000+08:00

Precious gems of nocturnal lives,
lives without and gives with kind.
Worldly desires deny.
darkeness.

exams in 1 week!

2007-04-11T20:52:00.000+08:00

Annyeong.

So many changes in my life, think i could make a movie outta it already.
just last week, i discovered my korean tutor is my mum's friend! My goodness...
I so wanna pick up many things... need to make time for it.. so that my life would be more fruitful!

bumped into serryoung n seehee today!! Serryoung say i must speak to seehee more so that i could improve on my korean. Yep and so for every entry, i'll end off with the phrase most prominently used for that day itself. I wonder if blogger allows you to type Korean words, shall try nex time!!

Till then.. sch tomorrow!!! 8.50 am :S

na do bum mashike mogo o! JAL JA! :D
shower yi je hoggu.. onje ja..

sadness....

2007-04-04T00:04:00.000+08:00

Dear blog. I am very very upset.. Firstly, both kitty and mougi are gone.. without a trace.. then poudou, was being adopted by a lady.. I know that she would be given a better life there.. but though we spent a little time together.. i still cant bear to let her go! i miss her so terribly that i'll think of her every second.. her cries... how she tries to scoop things with her baby paws... how she loves tummy tickles... :((((( Fed her milk each time and even bought her a collar.. but she's too tiny to wear one.. the collar's still with me though.. its the only thing that reminds me of her... her scent... i miss her so much... i told poudou on the last day i playedd with her. Somehow she could sense someting's coming.. i told her i love her.. and that she must be a good kitty.. i gave her high fives and told her to be brave.. =(( she's my only friend :(((( and she's gone!!!!!

then here comes the 2 stray bunnies i picked up off the road.. Toki 1 and Toki 2. Toki 2 has its hind paws injured.. due to financial constraints i couldnt afford to bring him to the vet.. i tried to nurse it.. then i found a suitable adopter.. she came down last night and brought him to the vet as she suspected that toki 2 could've broken its hind leg.. told jher to get back to me and she did.. tellin me that a xray was done, and the doc couldnt do anything abt it as it was starting to rot. i was so depressed...the best option was to put it to sleep as it was in alot of pain and wdnt b eating well.. hate myself... i could have saved his life if i had the money.. full of regrets.... hate this.. so helpless.. all the stupid limitations in life.. the 2nd option wazs to amputate it.. but toki 2 wouldnt be happy cos rabbits rely on their hind legs unlike cats and dogs... i am so sad!!!!!!!!!!
Toki 2.. if ur in the heavens above... i want to let you know that i love you... and i totally wanna beat the owner who abandoned u and ur brother... i totally regretted not hugging u for the last time... i didnt know u were in so much pain.............

Please people... do not abandon your pets... they have feelings too... they're more than just a friend...... besides you, they have no one else to rely on...

:C

2007-02-22T17:46:00.000+08:00

Hello blog. I am in the school's library now, and my abdomen area hurts like crazy............

THIS WEEK IS SO DAMN STRESSFUL THAT I JUST WANNA SHOUT.

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

byebye..

its been sooo long

2007-02-10T22:24:00.000+08:00

HELLO blog. I've missed talking to you.

I'm gonna have mushrooms and leek, ginseng chicken and kimchi for dinner. :)

And my marketing assignment... is gonna be due after CNY, together with managerial accounting. MUST STOP PROCRASTINATING NOW!

Also, I've fallen in love with swimming.. went swimming once again today, and tampines is a fab place to swim. The freedom... the clarity.. the endless xyz.....

that's all. Thanks for listening to me blog.. will talk to you again...

tra la la....

2007-01-11T22:55:00.000+08:00

man. HOLIDAYS ARE ABOUT TO END SOON!!!! and all of us just got our results via studentmail today.. I'm glad everyone managed to clear this semester and proceed on to the next =D

This hol turned out to be the most fruitful one ever. Been to places i've never been before.. truly enlightened!! But of course, my expenditure increased like nobody's business.. i must do something about it soon!! like give tuition or something to primary school kids.

I've got tons of photos yet to be published on this site.. and i can't wait!!! It's just that my computer has some faults.. cant post pictures here.. so i'd most likely use my sister's.

For those who didn't know, i went on a 10 days trip back to Korea.. and thought through things. It did help.. and i finally realise that certain things should remain as memories and that I should not irritate the hell out of certain individuals by continously bugging them on this matter. I thank God for my wonderful classmates who made me understand what self-worth is, although i've not thoroughly come to terms with it, and who had gave me the strength to carry on, through the stressful projects and the exams :)

who's the liar?

2006-11-23T10:00:00.000+08:00

In school's lab now. And im amazed and the extent you would actually go to put urself under a better light, to continue deceiving yourself with lies that masked your eyes..like a smoke screen.

For i know for sure that i have no regrets that we have ended so abruptly as i DID chase you back then. Not like you did bother anyway. All you did was to ignore me for god noes how long, and call me a friggin liar when i did no wrong. Was missing you a wrong thing then? Im not asking for a patch or anything of that sort, in fact, im super tired of asking you. Tired of CONVINCING you that i love you. though on the other hand, i wanted so much to tell you. Well im happy that you finally UNBLOCKED me yesterday on msn, and i told you that i missed you, and all you did was to call me a friggin liar. its simply not fair to me, all these times that i thought of you.

you just so stuck in your own world. you think you sacrificed alot by subliming into my world. but didnt i SUBLIME into yours as well. did i eva pushed you away. ur the one who lied right from the very beginning. Telling me about the stupid dinosaurs and i was naive enough to actually believe you. caring for you like ur the last person i know on this fucked up planet. trusting you and your words. Ever since the brunei trip u changed so much. all ur promises. all unfulfilled.

so you think ur love was me was true? if it is why am i the one telling you that i love you all da time. why do i hurt so badly when ur nt here? cant u see it????

sure, if you dont wish for our paths to cross. i seriously dun understand why must you do this on the expense of our capable friendship.

im tired. tired of waiting, tired of the deceptions i sunk deeply into. tired of holding on.... if this is what you want as it makes you happy. i would give it to you. although i still have the strong intention to be friends with you at least..

2006-10-17T03:37:00.000+08:00

reason why im still up at 3.31am is because i couldnt sleep. Duh?
And its because my mind is clouded with plenty of thoughts.. regarding XXXX and school work.
I'm so afraid that XXXX would haunt my mind that i'd consistently dig out things to do. And now i kinda completed what i have to, you crept into my mind..

dammit........

Plenty of project work and homework to accomplish! Probably a blessing in disguise....

2006-10-17T01:14:00.000+08:00

obviously..

2006-10-11T00:04:00.000+08:00

'You are stronger than you you are, but only if you want to be. It isn't easy, but you must understand that I'm not talking about your emotions. Those you can't control. You're still going to , you're still going to have moments when you don't feel you can go on. But you have to act as if you can. At a like this, actions are just about the only things you can control.'

Hiccups :(

2006-10-01T03:30:00.000+08:00

Just as i was about to hit the sack, I had hiccups.. and was bouncing off the chair continuously..

Freakin hell. Stop it already...

*argh!!!!!*

2006-09-29T22:46:00.000+08:00

Recently, i told few that i wanted to end my life.

But none believed.

Reflection.

2006-09-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

Silently suffering in despair..

afraid of memories.. but they are unavoidable..they are practically everywhere..

Walking past the playground i thought of the picnics we used to have.. the way you bit on to the oreos, peanutbutter and bread..how we stuffed ourselves with oregon.. and how u once told me you would be there, at the dinosaurs if world came tumbling down...

i walked past it quickly, afraid to take another glance.. my heart was aching so bad.

Then came the bus stop.. where we normally sat during the 1st month to wait for the last bus home.. how we just simply sat next to eachother and listen to mp3. How we embraced each other before the dreaded bus takes you home..

Then came the lift. Nearly everytime my finger would brush against the 17 button, you can call it by instinct.. or it has already become a second nature to me.. the 17th floor was like our love haven.. a 2nd home for us. Where we would stare out of the windows.. and enjoy the coolness of the night.. Everything was so simple..

Nobody to play bomberman with me anymore.. noone to catch toys for me anymore.. noone to watch movie with, eat salty popcorn AND nachos, share a big cup of drink anymore.. or even sharing the awful cherry garcia pack..

I tried to be strong.. but each time there would be flashbacks of you.. it has been so long that my hands havent been grabbed or squeezed by another.. how long ive not been whining or being hugged by someone who cared to make me happy..

Remember those times we went over to ur place to watch movies.. and cause of this i got an acct to loan vids? how each time i always wanted to catch a horror film and then get so frightened that you threatened not to watch horror shows in future? How i would sulk if you are too engrossed in the show and i felt lonely all of the sudden? even when we are watching the same show?

you used to leave behind loots at the grape seedling i planted.. and i'd hop down the stairs to retrieve it, and in return, leave behind drawings or drinks for you.. im afraid that this would never ever happen again..

It's not that i dont want to understand... thats all i can say.. you wouldn't know how i felt, what im going thru.. its okay...

meanwhile.. i shall.. indulge in school work.. other than that.. i dont know what i would do.

Im so miserable and lonely inside.... i wonder if u do too.. or maybe ur already happy somewhere.. i dont wanna know..

hurts. simply hurts, so bad. My fingers brushed through your face in print.. cant help but my eyes welled up with tears..

Be my escape...

stuffy nose.

2006-09-21T00:43:00.000+08:00

What am i feeling?

I don't feel like waiting anymore... cause it's heading to nowhere.

Maybe i should just say a silent goodbye..

lets just see how it goes..

ACCOUNTING TEST TOMORROW!

Many told me that guys normally would not initiate a breakup cause they wanna look good. It's easier for themselves too if they got dumped instead. It's an ego thing. And Madaline told me to love myself more, and told me ways to see if the guy is worth it or not, gentlemanly or not.. bla bla.

:(

2006-09-19T03:11:00.000+08:00

Hip hop was fun..
but my body felt like shit the next morning. We had to like, do so many crunches, side crunches, pushups when its only our first lesson :/ Not to mention i've caught a cold.. and every sneeze or cough made my chest and tummy hurt like mad =(cant wait to try out raggae with nad next time.. ( and latin! )

And freaking hell. So many hw to do. So many projects to do. The management essay is bugging me to start working on it.. but.. blah........ essay?! :(was doing my accounting hw,shall complete the rest of it tomorrow in the library.

This week's terrible....

i wanna justdie...

to YOU.

2006-09-18T01:51:00.000+08:00

goddamn hypocrite.

ur the one having double standards.

This is pure hatred i tell you. Im so ANGRY that i wanna slash you with my penknife.

I will make my exit.

wiohcwenc?

2006-09-02T02:03:00.000+08:00

wah lau. im. so. kjngvw.

ioewhocnw;onc wqofijqocne!!!

My ass is nicer than yours.

2006-08-31T03:00:00.000+08:00

As the day passes, i see myself becoming more independent.. not relying on anyone to do anything like before.

I do get lonely at night. Thanks to J who was there for me through the lonely nights. But i think, i should stop this.. at once. I don't wanna be dependent on anybody cause it brings nothing but hurt.

My days are equally empty as yours... if you happen to be wondering...

I'm going to run tomorrow. Seriously, i've got no much stamina now.. gotta train! Gotta buy new mascara.. still contemplating on which one to get.

Yawn. I'm quite sleepy now. Can't wait for more bleach and naruto episodes to be uploaded. I'm waiting and anticipating the next episode like hell. Gr.

what to do.what to do.what to do?

ah. i gonna paint my toenails tomorrow. after my run =)

I hope that tomorrow will be a better day! And i dont want next week to end so quickly... :( Think i better go sleep now. im soooooo.. sleepy.

oh yah.. today is my orientation day. I love the whole new ambience there. Made friends with pple coming from diff parts of the world. i even had a friend by the name of Pyi who is a Burmese. And there's a korean girl in my class too! Cant wait for the new campus to be ready by the end of the year.

If dont know if i were to wait any longer.. i..

aiya. Goodnight to everybody. Stay happy =)

I WANNA LIKE, FEED HORSES TOMORROW!

yah lah okay.

2006-08-27T20:36:00.000+08:00

I'm a genius. I know what i wanna do tomorrow.. but really carry the tasks out would be another thing altogether la.

Maybe ill go see horses at the park just like today.. then maybe ill go running..

sometimes, i hate being a girl. It's not easy to please one isnt it.. when she says no.. it means a yes.. aiya..

Im kinda sleepy now.. maybe i need to shower.. then ill be fresh.. but whats the point right..

Yeah.. im like living by the day now.. nothing to look forward to anymore just like before..

aiya.. this is senseless and crappy..

Feline, shut up okay. Stupid girl.

Bored.

2006-08-24T20:16:00.001+08:00

Why do people run from Feline?

You can hear people's thoughts and constantly talk back making you seem like a crazy person

'Why do people run from you?' at QuizGalaxy.com

sad.

2006-08-24T02:39:00.000+08:00

now im fucking upset..

I want to be cradled in your arms once more..

with the same kind of affection as before..

Nonsense entry.

2006-08-24T01:44:00.000+08:00

hey blog.. do you think im upset right now? I don't know.. i just feel like staring into the space, or just stare at some silly object in my room.. or just at that glow in the dark gooey sticky lizard stuck on my monitor..

This anxiety that i'm feeling.. i cannot comprehend what caused it.. maybe i do know.. but its so much that i would just simply have a headache going deeper into it.

yest night, i couldnt sleep.. i was fumbling through my old note books and diaries.. some brought back unwanted memories, though i pretty missed living in the past.. right now, i dont know what the future holds.. and being me, i just want to hide and wither away as time passes..

There are some people, or 'friends', whom i think that should be forgotten by now. I think they know who they are.. but i dont wish to name them.. i dont want to talk abt such matters already.

To this particular person.. i really want to tell you that im really tired..maybe not physically.. but emotionally..i dont know whats gonna happen.. and for the first time, im so clueless about everything..i dont have a distinctive answer to certain things regarding you..and the reason why im still lingering right here is because of the faith we once shared strongly..you know, after that night, my world simply crumbled. I hated the sight of anything, or rather, everything..now, everyday's a jaded facade..im afraid. I dont know. I dont know.. what do you want..

sigh.. i feel like crying.. so im like stuck in between shits thinking that is fucking stupid to cry so early in the morning and the desire to cry..

many things happened within these 2 months.. i remembered telling Z that i would just be a passing car in Z's life.. and soon, the whole period of meeting me would just fade, like distant echoes..

i dont know why im typing all these stupid crap now.. it has been quite some time since i talk about my feelings openly here..

i hate talking to pple with high IQ and low EQ. I know many whom are like this. Such people, kindly get lost thank you..

i wanna die, like now.

Quiz. (im bored.. so..)

2006-08-24T00:39:00.000+08:00

ICE PRINCESS/PRINCE .
You are very difficult to get. You have big requirements and this one you love must try hard to get you. But after she/he melt your heart she/he will be the most happy person in the world. You need someone who shoes you that you are someone SPECIAL and it makes you feel good to see that you are loved. She/He shall know that you could easily get another girl/boyfriend ,but you won't as long as you love your partner. when she/he hurts you, you will hurt him too, but in general you dont get hurt. If your partner cheated you ,you would react cold and immediately (try to) forget or to hurt him/her. TIP: Try to show your partner what you really feel! You are very good at hiding your true emotions, which can make you seem to be arrogant.

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Rukia, you exhibit an even balance between left- and right- hemisphere dominance and a slight preference for visual over auditory processing. With a score this balanced, it is likely that you would have slightly different results each time you complete this self-assessment quiz.

You are a well-rounded person, distinctly individualistic and artistic, an active and multidimensional learner. At the same time, you are logical and disciplined, can operate well within an organization, and are sensitive towards others without losing objectivity. You are organized and goal-directed. Although a "thinking" individual, you "take in" entire situations readily and can act on intuition.

You sometimes tend to vacillate in your learning styles. Learning might take you longer than someone of equal intellect, but you will tend to be more thorough and retain the material longer than those other individuals. You will alternate between logic and impulse. This vacillation will not normally be intentional or deliberate, so you may experience anxiety in situations where you are not certain which aspect of yourself will be called on.

With a slight preference for visual processing, you tend to be encompassing in your perceptions, process along multidimensional paths and be active in your attacking of situations or learning.

Overall, you should feel content with your life and yourself. You are, perhaps, a little too critical of yourself -- and of others -- while maintaining an "openness" which tempers that tendency. Indecisiveness is a problem and your creativity may not be in keeping with your potential. Being a pragmatist, you downplay this aspect of yourself and focus on the more immediate, obvious and the more functional

Shut the freak up.

2006-08-18T20:58:00.000+08:00

Seriously. Once is okay, twice is still okay, thrice is STILL WAY too okay.

But if you do this countless of times and till both my fingers and toes cant keep up with the number of times you behaved, i simply cannot. take. it.

Actually, you're ********************** ( i've decided not to tell the whole world what it is).

Anyway, the red fumes are subliming into the thin air already. Passion-less.

(Ps. I deleted lotsa text from this entry. I don't feel like being too detailed about this.)

PURPOSELY SHOW YOU MY SPASTIC FACE TO IRRITATE YOU.

While i remain happy . (like real)

i love brightly coloured panties!

2006-08-16T23:58:00.000+08:00

Recently, i've been buying lots of lingerie, especially panties. I got 3 from la senza a couple of weeks ago as there was a sale.. and now this(actually i bought 3 pieces of this as well..in red, beige and yellow). I thought the cut's rather flattering.. so i just, GOT IT:D

I hope that person likes it, and gives me a spank for this :) Or i'll tickle his feet! hee hee.

i am hot, and ive got brains. If only ah.

2006-08-15T13:45:00.000+08:00

April:

Suave and compromising.
Funny andhumorous.
Stubborn.
Verytalkative.
Calm and cool.
Kind and sympathetic.
Concerned and detailed.
Loyal.
Does work well with others.
Very confident.
Sensitive.
PositiveAttitude.
Thinking generous.
Good memory.
Cleverand knowledgeable.
Loves tolook for information.
Able to cheer everyone upand/or make them laugh.
Ableto motivate oneself and others.
Understanding.
Funto be around.
Outgoing.
Hyper.
Bubbly personality.
Secretive.
Boy/girlcrazy.
Loves sports, music,leisure and traveling.
Systematic.
Hot but has brains.

bored, hurt, upset.

2006-08-14T14:25:00.000+08:00

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question.

How am I feeling today?
When you say nothing at all

Will I get far in life?
Show me the way : no comments at all.

How do my friends see me?
Fate of the Gods : now this is funny.

Will I get married?
Love across the ocean-koda kumi

What is my best friend's theme song?
behind these hazel eyes-kelly clarkson

What is the story of my life?
It's a small world-koda kumi

What is/was high school like?
Every heart-boa

How can I get ahead in life?
Wake me up when sept ends-Greenday

What is the best thing about me?
Rock the world-boa

What is today going to be like?
Boulevard of broken dreams

What song describes my parent(s)?
naruto,wind

To describe my grandparents?
Toki ni ai wa

How is my life going?
Love, me

How does the world see me?
Ghost of you and me

Will I have a happy life?
City of the ancients (final fantasy)

What do my friends really think of me?
Scars

Do people secretly lust after me?
Are we the waiting

How can I make myself happy?
Miss(understood)

What should I do with my life?
Pieces

Will I ever have children?
American Idiot. :/

sentosa 1

2006-08-10T23:08:00.000+08:00

It has been like ages since i last went suntanning! Went to siloso beach with Charlene and Lenise.. and helped out at the bnj outlet there for awhile too.. Lenise was like our photographer for the day.. and she took really damn weird pics of me la!

My Slipper kinda spoilt charlene's picture... :( And don't ask me why i looked like a dried fish in that picture yah..

I dunno man. But these mid-air shots are damn hilarious!!!! Those failed attempts and lenise's flying slipper just simply tickles me!

This is one big ass photo of me..wait, Big ass fuggly weird photo of me. Right charlene!! :D

Ok lah, im tired already. Part 2 coming up. There's like a hundred pictures to upload..

OOOh yah!!! Yest was damn fun la at the photoshoot, except the makeup part. My skin literally couldn't breathe.. and i looked plastic. The makeup itself took like, an hour.. and my hair was experiencing hell, after being sprayed and combed in an opposite manner and then straightened and then curled! And i was like, suffocating in my gown. Wanted to have the korean costume one for the last shot.. but then they dont have the pants for the guy, so we did a Japanese one. He had to carry me la, and my button kept coming off whenever his hands slipped as the kimono was very silky.. The fun part was cleaning up at his place.. :D We had lotsa fun in the toilet cleaning off our makeup :) can't wait for the photos to be developed!!! then i'll try to post if up for u guys to see!

2006-08-07T23:06:00.000+08:00

under ultimate pressure and stress.

Like what exactly do you want me to be like? You can't have the best of both worlds.. Since You're so smart then you lead me by example lah,use yourself as a model.

like that would ever, ever happen.

anyway! I can't wait for our photoshoot on wednesday. I hope the gown fits nicely on that day..

And that reminds me, i gotta reconfirm my subject. Argh. Im so stressed.

Argh!

2006-07-21T23:20:00.000+08:00

had a belated birthday dinner for both Boonhwee and skunky! Shuxiang organised one i think.. went to *crap i forgot the name of the restaurant* to eat.. argh. i really forgot la! dammit.

Pretty shuxiang!! She promised to go tanning with me! :D

Me looking gloomy for fun and skunky looking retarded as always..

Boonhwee and shuxiang, with their milkshakes.

BH's mussel spags. Both shuxiang and hwa ee had bigass fish and chips..

skunky and i shared this! Turkey meat is damn yummy la! And i lovee sausages!

Poor skunky had to book in camp after dinner.. and the rest of us went back by train. :(

Taken by BH's lousy camera phone! >:/

2006-07-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

working @ cathay is fun fun fun with the babes around:)

Linling, Me and Uncle Wee Tiong! (He's damn funny!)

Linling, Lenise, dea, Huishan and Me having fun cleaning up at night!

Dea calls me 'Princess Of the Broom' and she makes sure that the whole world knows about it. :/

With uncle weetiong!

My classmates came over to visit me, and howard agreed on getting a vermonster! =D

These make working fun, even when you encounter nasty customers nearly everyday =)

2006-07-21T22:27:00.000+08:00

Today lenise and i went for brazillian waxing! I chose guava and grapefruit wax! Damn yummy i tell you.. Both of us purchased the student package =) Penny was very nice, she gave as FOC for this session!

Will go back with Lenise next time! MAZLINAH YOU WANNA DO?? hahaha!

Anyway, im so happy. I feel so squeaky clean down under. =) O ya, for girls who shave, don't you touch the shaver again! It's gonna so give you ingrown hair as you get older.. and after that there'd be scars.. and then.. the only way you could save yourself is by IPL which is like, a thousand bucks for half a leg?? No hair removal creams as well!!

okay lah, i shut up now.

Oh yes! Today i was an angel. I did something nice for steph. Helped her shave her bushy eyebrows =) heehee..

need a freaking hair cut, like now.

2006-07-21T21:00:00.000+08:00

SOBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB....

2006-07-21T20:48:00.000+08:00

i gosjgieg you and yet you kosynop hw me?????!!!!

FUCK!?

Im damn pissed.

I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-07-19T16:13:00.000+08:00

i hate whatever that's going on right now. It's as though i dont belong, or maybe its seems so just because i am thinking too much. But how could this be if this is exactly what i am going through right now? I simply don't understand.

Certain things frustrated me. Don't tell me you didn't see it coming? It's totally unfair and a lack of responsibility on your part. Actually i shouldn't even care, but the thing is im being tied down together with you as well. I don't know if you'd stick to your promises.

Darling Lenise bought me a surprise gift. A pair of beautiful earings. Love working with her =) Not fogetting our browhaus and waxing date, with charlene as well..

grr. i hate you, for deceiving yourself and making me so irritated and cheated!

2006-07-15T23:41:00.000+08:00

wad makes a relationship special....is the special connection....the unconditional love, the openness which no one else shares, the mutual trust, the patience gathered by pure instinct, and the willingness to give your all....nonetheless if things like these seemingly unrealistic and maybe unattainable....it is only the hedonistic and skeptical mind dat refuses to believe it all....

to me...one refusing to talk and just simply shake things off and cover it up....means that one is not willing to face problematic issues with the other....then where is the connection then? one feeling doubtful of the other's span of commitment in the relationship....means that one is not yet opening to the other....for not having the symbolic empathy given by the human instinct spurred by Love itself....when one withdraws instead of having the first thought of talking it out with the other....it creates the picture of one having insufficient trust....where the openness isnt there....physical contact is to be spurred by emotions and instinctively the human mind....it is symbolic of trust and affection....maybe one may think otherwise....but it is only true that a pair will only be giving themself to the other by allowing themselves to fall reliant on the other....and by handing over their vulnerability to the other party having the faith that it will be handled with care....

a free fall is when u let loose of yourself....knowing that the other party will catch u and cushion your fall firmly....it doesn't need rationalizing nor analysing....all it takes is trust....a freefall allows an openness to be junctioned where both therefore will be able to allow thoughts and emotions freeflowing....a free fall is when u know u can share your all with your loved one....when u know that u can present yourself raw anytime....without the discouraging fear and the cynical thought that things are gonna fail....

a connection dealt wif carelessly, given no room for interlinking.....only goes to show that its a weak link....almost affirming the fact that the self inducing insecurity is causing the connection to be distorted....like having the feeling to let go so as to escape from the need to provide....a commitment is where there is a mutual faith which allows providing to act as an upkeep....to push the commitment on and to bring it into greater depths of intimacy....special to the pair themselves....

if words are speaking more than action....clouded instincts are taking over....if actions are different from spoken words....a disconnection is set to go....like a time bomb....for it is like a free fall go wrong....

2006-07-15T23:32:00.000+08:00

Laughter dissolves under the heavy rain..

Tonight my heart broke into a thrillion pieces...

shattered..

don't talk to me...

2006-07-11T23:15:00.000+08:00

I was BORED. So.. i entertained myself with quizzes while waiting for important smses!!! GRRR.

You Are a Schoolgirl!

You're not quite as wild as a "kogyaru", but with your short plaid skirtand silly white socks, you're still a sexual fetish object.You can usually be seen hanging out in the girly section of the video game places,collecting photobooth stickers of you and your friends. You may not be as innocent as you look.Did those vending machine panties once belong to you?

What's" Your Japanese Subculture?

Your Seduction Style: The Charmer

You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement.
You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you.
By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power.
And then you've got them exactly where you want them!

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Your Seduction Style: Prized Object

The seduction game you play is tried, true, and still effective: hard to get.You know that the best seducers turn the tables - and get their crush to seduce them.The one running has the power, and you're a challenge that is worth the chase.
You are a master of enticing and pulling back. Giving a little and taking some away.You are controlled enough to know rewards come after a long seduction dance.Even though you want to call, email, or say "I love you" first - you don't!
You're style is the perfect mix of hot and cold - so much so that you have many suitors.Think Holly Golightly from Breakfast at Tiffany's ... or any of those creepy guys from the Bachelor.You're skilled at inspiring a chase. The real test is picking the person to slow down for.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Your Stripper Song Is

Dirrty by Christina Aguelera
"Too dirrty to clean my act upIf you ain't dirrtyYou ain't here to party"
You're so dirty, you make Christina look clean.

What Song Should You Strip To?

2006-07-09T00:17:00.000+08:00

Dearest Ennet darling..

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY SWEETHEART! <3

I love you!

2006-07-05T00:03:00.000+08:00

zhimei's sexual nickname:

"Sugar buns"

kenneth's sexual nickname:

"Hairy Hot Dog"

2006-07-05T00:01:00.000+08:00

You have a sexual IQ of 123

When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends.

2006-07-04T23:56:00.000+08:00

The porno of zhimei's life will be called ...

"A hard-core infomercial for Viagra"

'What" will the porno of your life be called?'

The porno of kenneth's life will be called ...

"Barely passable mutants gone wild!"

'What" will the porno of your life be called?'

2006-06-26T01:38:00.000+08:00

Real Me.

a woman never runs away
a woman never hides away
in order to survive

a woman never shows her fears
a woman never shows her tears
in order to survive

eff off.

2006-06-24T00:27:00.000+08:00

I am upset. HEAVILY upset. FREAKING upset. EFFING upset.

YOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOU. I've never blogged like this for a very long time and im like, trying hard to refrain myself from using the usual words from ' angry vocabulary'.

first, i bought it as a surprise. and u didnt like it. okay hurt hurt hurt. but be simple, i forgot all abt it. dont think ill use it infront of ur presence again.

(f? whats that sore feeling in my heart that im feeling?)

Anyway, that isnt important. It's just an object. a material. pointless. which costed me close to $14.

OKAY. OKAY.

i dont know why am i stressing you. there's journalism, mass comm, thingsthat i thing you'd fare better in than psychology cause for this you hafta go far. Am i stressing you? i DID not force you. i said its your choice. it's nice being in the same school, but it'll just be a spastic fantasy of mine. Meeting for lunch, before school, after school. It's just so, movie like. things like this WILL NEVER happen in reality.

( the closer you wanna get to a person, the further that person gets.)

OKAY. shut up. im totally in no mood to blabber on. I seem to be stressing you in every single aspect. Im hopeless. ive failed. failed to make u happy. i am waiting for that impt msg to come. its always like this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life sucks, as usual.

Haruno SAKURA!

2006-06-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

Which Naruto Character Are You?
Test by naruto - kun.com

2006-06-16T01:28:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i cried my balls dry.

Today my balls shriveled up and detached themselves from their origin.

I've got no balls now.

2006-06-16T01:08:00.000+08:00

What the fuck am i doing with..

2006-06-15T03:22:00.000+08:00

i am missing him. Now, at 3.21am.

Freak. I'm sleepy. But i'm too upset to sleep. Alot of things happened towards the end of the day.. its making me confused. But im pretty successful at doing something. Like finally..

shall meet him in our dreams. I'm late! I promised to give him a hug in dreamland!

Nights..

11 months!

2006-06-13T00:04:00.000+08:00

Our 11 months celebration today. One more month to a year!

headed down to tampines to play Bomberman and had ramen. I seriously suck at playing bomberman :(

Anyway!!! I don't have to work tomorrow! :D I need more sleep man!! Sooooo sleepy.

NEEDA DO SOME SHOPPING THIS WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want a black corset!

I'm gaining weight like nobody's business too.

Ah, im gonna go shower, and then watch some anime!

Oh yah, dear bought me a nike squeeze bottle! Love him loads.

Brazillian wax.

2006-06-01T12:59:00.000+08:00

I'm so in love with Brazillian now!

Pain factor: 4/10

but depending on which area lah. :D

2006-05-29T22:21:00.000+08:00

When a woman steals your husband, there's no better revenge than to let her keep him.

2006-05-22T00:10:00.000+08:00

To the plump man who had a regular cherry garcia and oatmeal cookie chunk on a flower bowl at about 3PM, this is for you :

_|_

*Thank you and hope you'd enjoy your icecream *Beams*

2006-05-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

1. Taken a picture naked? SOMEHOW.
2. Painted your room? NOPE
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? WHY NOT?
4. Drove a car? NO
5. Danced in front of your mirror? YES
6. Had a crush? YES
7. Been dumped? YES
8. Stole money from friend? NO
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? NO
10. Been in a fist fight? YES
11. Snuck out of your house? YES
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? YES
13. Been arrested? NO
14. Made out with a stranger? NO
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? YES
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? YES
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? NO WAY MAN. GROSS.
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? YES
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? YES
20. Seen someone die? NO
21. Been on a plane? YES
22. Kissed a picture? YES
23. Slept in until 3PM? YES, till 6 PM EVEN
24. Love or miss someone right now? YES. THIS FEELING SUCKS.
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? YES
26. Made a snow angel? NO
27. Played dress up? YES
28. Cheated while playing a game? YES
29. Been lonely? YES
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? YES
31. Been to a club? YES
32. Felt an earthquake? IF TREMORS ARE COUNTED
33. Touched a snake? YES
34. Ran a red light? NO
35. Been suspended from school? NO
36. Had detention? NO
37. Been in a car accident? NO
38. Hated the way you look? YES. ALL THE TIME
39. Witnessed a crime? NO
40. Pole danced? SOON
41. Been lost? YES
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? YES
43. Felt like dying? YES
44. Cried yourself to sleep? YES
45. Sang karaoke? YES
46. Sucked your thumb? YES
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? YES. AND I REGRETTED IT TOTALLY THOUGH I CANNOT SEEM TO STOP.
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? YES
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? YES
50. Kissed in the rain? ONE OF MY FANTASIES
51. Sing in the shower? YES
52. Made love in a park? NO. ITS UNCOMFORTABLE
53. Had a dream that you married someone? YES
54. Glued your hand to something? YES
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? STUPID?
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? STUPID!
57. Been a cheerleader? YES. DON'T LAUGH!
58. Sat on a roof top?YES
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? 2 DAYS
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? YES
61. Played chicken? YES
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? YES
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? IM ALWAYS HOT NO????? :D
64. Broken a bone? NO
65. Been easily amused? YES
66. Laugh so hard you cry? YES
67. Mooned/flashed someone? YES
68. Cheated on a test? YES
69. Forgotten someone's name? YES
70. Slept naked? YES
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? ANOTHER FANTASY
72. Performed on stage? YES
73. Blacked out from drinking? NO
74. Played a prank on someone? YES
75. Gone to a late night movie? YES
76. Made love to anything not human? NO
77. Failed a class? YES
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? NO
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? NO
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? NO
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? 9th OF JULY ONLY
82. Thrown strange objects? NO
83. Felt like killing someone? YES
84. Thought about running away? YES
85. Ran away? NO
86. Did drugs? NO
87. Had detention and not attend it? NO
88. Dumped anyone? NO
89. Made a parent cry? YES
90. Cried over someone? YES
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? NO
92. Dated someone more than once? YES
93. Have/had a dog? YES
94. Own an instrument? YES
95. Been in a band? YES
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? NO
97. Broken a cd? NO
98. Shot a gun? IN ARCADES
99. Dated a married person of the opposite sex? NO UNLESS..
100. Written a love letter? YES. MANY FUCKING TIMES.

Great deals!

2006-05-21T00:18:00.000+08:00

Anyone wanna go for brazillian waxing, eyebrow treatments or facial? LET ME KNOW! Cause i can get you a fifty percent discount on all ala carte treatments!

I'm soooooo keen on brazillian! anyone wanna accompany me? MICHELLE??? WANTTT??????